change

They say people don't change, but I feel that change is mixed in almost everything new we do. We try different things, we take on new challenges and find ourselves essentially the same, but distinctly changed. Change is good, it adds experience and determines feelings and inner strengths that you didn't know existed in you until then. Yes, it may bring suffering, it may cause pain, it may seem hard, but it's the only way to reach the real you, your best well shaped self that's carefully wrapped up in layers that you have to peel off to set free. As any "facial", the process will leave marks and will hurt to a certain extent, the final result will show your better skin, all light up and glowing, outlining your beautiful authentic features.

But what is interesting about change is that it's not that personal. I feel the need to change is influenced by people around us - close ones or simply acquaintances. A powerful meeting, even if it's a singular event may plant a seed in your heart or mind and be the reason for your next change.

People influence you in various ways - they can inspire you to want more and try harder, they may force you to feel powerless, they can carry you in their roller-coaster and have a taste of another rhythm of living. I am mostly afraid and at the same time intrigued by the people that simply come in your life and wake up emotions and reactions you have never been aware of before. They take you to a new level, where you discover that control is not that easy to achieve and where feelings rule to the point that you're just the tool to express them. Now there's a panic :) Yet, losing control is not such a bad thing; from time to time it's even recommended. And sometimes I let go and hope that this change will bring a new happy experience. And in those moments, you may find me taking different shapes and trying new positions.

And if people influence me, I do the same to them. To those who really shake my inner core I can only hope that the feeling is mutual, done in my own manner, as positively as possible. And wish that I can move them also and that in our common mutually inspired movement, we will reach a perfectly synchronized dance.